I am not sure if I should drop my Geography class or not. I could and then take it over the summer but then it is one more class in the summer and one more thing that I will have to do then. I just do not have the motivation or the work ethic to get everything done right now. I have taken on too much. School should be my top priority, yet I am not interested in it at all. I am so scared to student teach in the fall but that is seriously the last thing on my mind. Do I drop this class? I am not sure. I want to call my mom but I am unsure if she will even be able to give me sound advice. I seriously seriously do not know what to do. Not wanting to become embarrassed should be enough to keep me in the course, yet what if I fail? I cannot do this nor do I want to. I wonder if I could take this course at kvcc, but of course it is not that hard.. this is just a lot of work. On top of actual work. I hate this so much. I am so stressed out. I could just stop studying for this exam and then work harder next time but of course, I always tell myself this and then it never happens. I never work harder. I want to work hard. I want to get my life in order. I want to make things right. I just do not know what to do. I do not want to cry but then again all I want to do is cry. I have such a long to-do list. I want to dedicate myself to other things and just get it all done but it is just so hard. THen again no one ever said that this was going to be easy. It is going to be a challenge and of course it is not worth it if I did not have to work for it. I just want to be happy, have clear goals and be able to get things done. I should just go home and go to bed but I am dreading tomorrow and the long list of things that I need to do. I will go home, sleep, wake up and call my mom. I will vent to her, ask for her advice and then make a decision. If i drop this course, then I will have more time to dedicate to everything else.

• Taxes
• Fasfa
• COEHD scholarship
• RENT
• SUBLET
• Contact people for interviews
• Sponsorships
• Pack for NY
• English Midterm
• English Group Project
• History Weekly assignment
• History Extra Credit
• History GR Essay

I need better self-discipline. OMG what am I going to do with my life?! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!